I had a dream that I got a score of 86 out of 100 for some Physics examination and topped the school. Hoho. I also had a dream that I went for my Physics lab practical assessment without reading the lab manuals and knowing absolutely nothing. In other words, I screwed it up. And to make it worse, there was an Indian girl who knew absolutely everything. It was quite a traumatising nightmare. And since I remember the dream so clearly, I will make sure I actually read my lab manuals before practicals (:

Ok whatever anyway today I heard stuff which I didn't quite like. But I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt. Did it once doesnt mean he did it again right.?Many things happened this year which made me realise you can't always take things at surface value(understand?). And that's cow. Why can't people be more honest, sincere, less scheming, ok maybe not to that extent but yar you get what I mean. I'm becoming rather jaded damn this is bad.

I really want to meet Jocelyn, Chianlin, Nicholas and Nelson, and Zhi Hui and Kania so badly! Maybe Yujun, Xiao yu and Priya as well if I have time. Mamalade Pantry and Al Fresco anyone? Pretty please? But I too realised that common tests are a mere two weeks away. Thats like three days left for each subject. If we take into consideration school, training, weekend getaways, and school, thats like one day left for each subject! Fuck fuck fuck there's so much to cover I'm actually quite scared. To add on, A level results for MTL is gonna release this friday! Damnit.

Goodbye holiday-which-has-yet-t0-come, hello books.  ¶ 9:57 PM 0 Comments

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  getting off my chest/ now the story had t end Walk Away - Paula Deanda

I saw you wit your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed

Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned

In the back of my mind
I can't help but question..
Does she rub your feet (When you've had a long day?)
And Scratch your scalp (When you take out your braids?)
Does she know that you (Like to play PS2 'till 6 in the mornin' like I do?)

I can't exlpain this feelin' (yeah)
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on (uh huh)
It gets so hard to walk away (I'm gon remember you You gon remember me)

Walk Away (Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk Away
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
Walk Away
I can't forget how we used to be
so hard to express this feeling
cause nobody compares to you (to you)
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  I didnt pon school today, I had fever yst night ok. yeah. But it subsided rather quickly after eating panadol. My mum still insisted on going to the doc and I got mc for two days! (: But I'm going back tmr la. Was quite bored at home so I just slept shop my entire day away.


I think I need to try loving people again. It shouldn't be all that hard (:  ¶ 5:19 PM 0 Comments

  Ok I'm finally beginning to feel stressed about schoolwork. Hope it's not too late. I'm struggling to keep up and read my notes. Econs still can Maths Physics and globalization of geo all drowning. Wah i actually feel stressed this year. hmm. Guess I've either been running away or just not caring.. It's all catching up with me. Ok I shall read all my unread lecture notes tonight. And feeble attempt maths tutorial. =/

I am feeling restless now.. and my knee hurts like hell =( from today's PE... ( I'm not fit fyi. Yes go ahead and laugh) poor me
Shameless request alert... I want flowers on second thought on valentine's day!! So i won't look so sad. Owell. I will probably look quite sad la. Anyway there's physics spa and training on that day.. And anyway again there's nothing to celebrate. I shall go home and hide after training so I won't see him with another girl roaming the streets with the love in their eyes overspilling onto the roads...sour grapes! I am going to bath. Goodnight.  ¶ 9:56 PM 0 Comments

  how do you live
in a time like this
how do you get rid
of all those insecurities
banish them once and for all
before they cause your fall

stop all the relentless sufferings
brain washing and heart tormentings

no really, how do you survive
before deep into the whirpool you dive
and learn to let yourself go
with nothing back you hold?

Okay. I don't really know how to start this post going about.
Funfair was a BLAST. I'm so jaded after working for almost 8 hours non-stop! Hahas and there's a black market- $10 bucks for 1 ICE KACHANG. Hello Mister Sun!
Will post some pics soon ((:

Truthbetold, I'm not any less tired this week than last. But hey, I'll pull through this! And I miss a lot of people. So, if you are reading this. I think its quite likely that I miss you. But then again.. haha. Where's my lovely!! I hope we are v-daying tgther this year. The only babe I've been talking to is Chian lin and I saw her crying this afternoon after a stiff quarrel with zw )): now i truly know why u did it the way you did,and i'm hating myself for being just like you.
To the benefits of my lovely friends.. Please stop haunting me down and asking me what I want for Val's day. Isn't it suppose to be a surprise?

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  virgin trip t Seng Siong market is quite horrifying with WaiChong )):  ¶ 10:15 PM 0 Comments

  I get extremely annoyed when people start jumping into conclusion about me.
Is it all-that-happening? Someone told me that I actually like this guy because he's a hot shyte. And to think that I treated you like a friend? wtf.srsly? You think what? I go to my wardrobe then suddenly got some magic dust sprinkle over my head and I will actually like you cause you are a hot shyte? And don't ever give me "OH-I'M-OH-SO-PARANOID" kind of attitude. Think you are a hot shit that I will "DIE" for you? Go find small girls la.

And this particular paragraph is shout out t someone:
Please if you're not pretty, you're not intelligent, you're not popular. YOU ARE JUST NOT. Stop trying to squeeze your way through and hope and wish so hard for some magic dust to sprinkled upon your little head and quit thinking that YOUR LANGUAGE IS DAMN FANTASTIC, or drops hint to let me know that you're interested t form a study group, its disgusting. And stop telling me to put in a few good words for you in front of Ng, because i'm just gonna tell her exactly what you told me to tell her. ' - asked me to put in a few good words for her. she is CLEVER. HARDWORKING.' it's DAMN SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY STUPID. Think you so "HOT" ar? Go find a ANG MO BOYFRIEND la!  ¶ 9:59 PM 0 Comments

  Oh yeah (:
My pretty necklance will arrive through mail by friday and
my gorgeous black baby frocked dress will be arriving tmr (:
And guess what!
my RALPH LAUREN PINK PONY AND GOLD PONY WILL ARRIVE THROUGH MAIL BY NEXT WEEK
I can't wait to rip the raspy wrapping away ((:

I spent $600 bombs to think of it again..
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  f, I hate t handle relationship problems and it is killing every bit of my braincells I have in my diminutive brain. Don't ever call my phone and ask for help!

sometimes I really don't like how i'm so fickle, I wish I had the ability to love stability, and trust someone with all me heart and be happy. It annoys me each time someone is hurt at the expense of my actions. Not annoyed by the person, but more of being annoyed with myself for being way too selfish to make that particular person happy. Its always me me me.

fuck.
my life's just about as fucked up as it can get.
i wish i knew what i was doing with my life
now i truly know why you did it the way you did,
and i'm hating myself for being just like you.
lastly.I BEG YOU.
leave me alone.
stay out.
stay where you are.
it was freaking hard to get back on track,
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  Relationships are like glass. It is just better to leave them broken than to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Not like I'm trying/hoping to put anything back tgt but when I see friends/people around me doing such stuff, it pains me too la.
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& I guess I would really like to go overseas to study... mug hard may (:  ¶ 8:55 PM 0 Comments

  I LOST MY WALLETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
I can't believe i actually walk barefooted in school opening event.
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WANT MY WALLET BACK!
I SWEAR THIS IS THE PUNISHMENT FOR BITCHING AND SWEARING TOO MUCH RECENTLY.

)))))))))):
PLS PLS PLS CALL ME BACK.
PLS RETURN MY WALLET.
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  The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart.

sometimes we just know it's totally pointless, and there isn't a light at the end of the tunnel, but we just decide to go for it anyways, simply because there's some short lived pleasure.
oh well. heart walls  ¶ 9:02 PM 0 Comments