f, I hate t handle relationship problems and it is killing every bit of my braincells I have in my diminutive brain. Don't ever call my phone and ask for help!

sometimes I really don't like how i'm so fickle, I wish I had the ability to love stability, and trust someone with all me heart and be happy. It annoys me each time someone is hurt at the expense of my actions. Not annoyed by the person, but more of being annoyed with myself for being way too selfish to make that particular person happy. Its always me me me.

fuck.
my life's just about as fucked up as it can get.
i wish i knew what i was doing with my life
now i truly know why you did it the way you did,
and i'm hating myself for being just like you.
lastly.I BEG YOU.
leave me alone.
stay out.
stay where you are.
it was freaking hard to get back on track,
now you're dragging me down the pit hole again.  ¶ 10:55 PM