It just dawned on me that I have never been as slack as I am now when I was back in nanchiau high
as in seriously!!

why?

I didnt have t start on what i haven't been doing for the past 6387432196876352 days in ij
what more with the two chapters being taught simultaneously at lectures
I'm like as lost as a duck
but it doesn't bother me
how ah?

and then somebody reminded me about PRELIMS
and I was like thinking when was the last time I actually had PRELIMS
in nanchiau high it was like an average of three tests per week in place of PRELIMS
perhaps that was what made me actually study
now everybody will do last minute studying during the june holidays
and the teachers will just leave you to die
that answers why I feel so god damn free now
although I very much don't want to do just that
but it seems like I have no drive
and even when I tried to study,
I realised that I don't have a grasp of the topic as much as I did back in secondary school
Its like just studying blindly

this sucks  ¶ 10:52 PM